weighing heavy
a lot of things weighing heavy on me these days, the "what if"-s, the "maybe if"-s, I'm not sure how to write this down, but I honestly felt that I have a lot of emotions suppressed within me. no, I'm not mad, I wasn't even sad. but there's just a little piece inside of me that still haven't quite healed yet. I truly felt like I have kept walking on eggshells around everyone close to me, be it friends or family. and I kinda felt that no one truly cares about me, no one even asks how I am doing these days, how I'm holding up... well. honestly, I have thought of ending "it" quite a few times now. I hate this place, I hate this world, It's true... it is a big bad world. and funny how no one notices that. and it is true someone somewhere had it harder than me, but oh, best believe I am not strong anymore. I am tired and literally exhausted of just existing. sometimes, I just want to disappear to a place, where no one knows who I...
